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NoFap logs #23

Open junjizhi opened 3 years ago

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Goal

Strategies

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 2 Grandeur goals

We can live a fuller life, more meaningful than simple pleasure seeking one.

Self-identity

That is not who I am.

I tackle complexity, achieve respect from people near me.

Overcoming my limit

I always have the courage to tackle difficulties, and serve as the role model for people around me. That's how I feel good about myself.

Long term satisfaction

There is a secret part of me that looks more long term changes in myself.

More sustained satisfaction is what I am after.

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 3 Feeling good

What emotions am I feeling?

Calm. After jogging exercise, I felt refreshed. Getting more stuffs done.

Less urges. Even though there were triggers from TV shows, I told myself to not think about porn.

Watching short videos didn't trigger my desire.

I felt good about:

New vocabulary:

Who else is around?

No one. I was mostly alone at home yesterday.

Reflection

Reading the Sex Ed.

Realizing the correct way to look at porn, I felt different motivation to improve myself.

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 4: Some flashbacks, but able to control

My cues

Hypothesis: Hardest at one week's point

What emotions am I feeling?

Still calm.

Distracted by more valuable stuffs. Now my thinking is more linear, effective, profound and long term.

Feeling good knowing that I'm focusing on the long term and becoming a better person

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 7: Work kept me busy, no time for thinking about fap

What emotions am I feeling?

Some flashbacks, but occupied by work, and reminded by my logs

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 8: Multiple flashbacks, but all got distracted away

Sources

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 9: Some moderate strength of flashbacks today

But I held it. I took a walk and felt tired. took a sleep after. Felt great.

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 10: Some flashbacks, but distracted myself by thinking about more meaningful things

There were some strong flashbacks. Very enticing to think about those images.

Even the word meaning helps me distract from those bad thinking.

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 12: Solved a tricky bug, very happy and thought about fapping, but suppressed the thought

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 13 [Can't hold it]: Very strong urge to fap, not sure if I will slip

If I slip, what would happen.

Nothing else seems very interesting, and makes me happy.

What emotions am I feeling?

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 6: Started over. Busy, some flashbacks. Aiming for more realistic goal: 3 weeks.

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 10: More energy. Binge before sleep. Still aim for the 3rd week!

What I'm feeling

What I'm doing

What I'm telling myself

Good things need to wait. 3rd week, that's a new record. I think we can make it.

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 11: slipped: can't sleep, and kept thinking about it

slipped again on Dec. 22

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 4: Calm & New goal: Two weeks

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 6: Some cues on making bookmarks. And some flashbacks

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 8: Some thoughts, but too busy with work and research, so suppressing it is doable

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 9: New Year eve, had some thoughts

But my body is too tired.

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 10: Strong desire....& slipped

My brain is ticking

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 4: No desire so far.

A pattern I noticed: One slip always followed by another one within a few days

junjizhi commented 3 years ago

Day 5: Pushups helps